Blogtember – My Turning Point

Ok, so I didn’t blog yesterday and now I’m five posts behind for Blogtember.¬† I’ve been down before…don’t count me out just yet. ūüėČBlogtember200_zps4672ae9b

Today’s post is describing a distinct moment when my life took a turn.

I like to think of a turning point as that moment‚ÄĒthat grand, cosmic flash, when suddenly everything you¬†think you¬†know is turned upside down.¬† You can’t go back, the only thing you can do is move forward.

Once upon a time, many moons ago (don’t ask how many), I was a bright-eyed 25-year-old working full-time.¬† It was my second, real adult, full-time job.¬† I had previously been working¬†the night shift and I finally got an opportunity to get a real 9 to 5 job with the land of the living.¬† It was a busy office, with a high volume of work, and a lot of pressure.¬† I worked hard, was eager to please, and was actually pretty good at my job.

There is a cost to everything in life.¬† The cost of being good at your job means you get more work.¬† People come to you because they know you can handle it and you’ll get it done right.¬† So pile it on they did.¬† Add to the fact that I worked for¬†someone who was a newly minted VP, out to prove¬†they could take on the world¬†not caring¬†who the casualties were along the way.

I started to become extremely stressed out.¬† I worked long hours trying to keep up, and no amount of talking to my boss about my work load helped.¬† I was headed for a breakdown, which of course was unavoidable…it was a collision waiting to happen.¬† I ended up taking two weeks of vacation to try to relax and pull myself together.¬† I had originally only scheduled to take one week, but after the week was up I was so scared of going back I called my boss and begged¬†for another week.¬† I returned to work after two weeks a little calmer and more relaxed, but it didn’t stick.¬† Just a week back in the office and I was right back where I started.

Between all the long hours and the stress I was under, I barely had any time to look for another job.¬† I just felt trapped.¬†¬†Shortly after going back to work, I was talking to my dad on the phone, explaining to him how things were still the same and I didn’t know what to do.

“If it’s really that bad, then why don’t you just quit,” he said.¬† “It’s not worth it for you to be so stressed and upset all the time.¬† You’re a smart girl, you’re good at your job.¬† You’ll figure it out and find something else”.

FLASH!

I couldn’t quit…could I?¬† What would I do for money?¬† What if I didn’t find something right away?¬† What if, what if, what if???

Remember earlier when I said you can’t look back, you can only go forward?¬† It’s true.¬† I could only go forward.¬† I could quit.¬† So, I did.

The next morning I went into my boss’ office and handed in my resignation.¬† It was like the weight of the world had been lifted off my shoulders.¬† The sun was shining, bird were singing, and for the first time in a long time I felt good.¬† I was scared to death, but it felt good.

I was out of work for three months.¬† After I couldn’t find a full-time job, I started¬†a temporary job at a government office.¬† It was originally a three-month contract and I ended up staying there for a year.¬† It is to this day one of the best places I ever worked.¬† I worked with such great people and I learned so much.¬† It also gave me contacts that led me to my next full-time position right after that contract ended.¬† If I had stayed where I was, miserable, who knows what would have become of me.¬† Instead I took a chance and it paid off.¬† Big time.

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