Don’t Be Afraid

I saw this on a Facebook page today, and thought I definitely needed to share it.  It’s something I certainly need to remind myself of, especially in those moments when I’ve hit the wall and feel like I can’t go any further (which is sometimes a couple of times a week).


I am in the rebuilding process now, which if you think about it can actually be an exciting thing. I’ve always looked at it before as a scary thing, but I’m trying to change that viewpoint.  It’s a lot of work to start over and it takes time to see results, but like the quote says, I have a chance to rebuild what I want.

Have a great week everyone! 🙂

Rise and Shine

On Monday my friend Ry sent me an email. The email contained an mp3 file and the following instructions:

Ok…here is an assignment for you. Attached I’ve placed an MP3. Do not listen to it right now. I want you to do the following:

a) put it on your iPod
b) the next morning walk/run you go out for, make it the first thing you play – listen to it only then

Now it should be said that I am an impatient person. Giving me something that I can’t use right away is tantamount to showing a child a toy and telling them the have to wait two hours to play with it. I’m going to loose my shit.Rise and Shine

But in an effort to be somewhat of an adult about this, I reluctantly followed his instructions.

Because of a back i jury (I get occasional bouts of sciatica) I was forced to abandon my Tuesday morning workout.  The plan this week was for my rest days to be Wednesday and Thursday, which meant my next workout would not have been until Friday.  Well there was no way in hell I was going to wait until Friday.  So up I got on Wednesday at 5:15am and did a little check to make sure my back was in functioning mode (I make it sound like I bounded out of bed, which is not how my body works. It was more of a slow crawl).

So there I was 5:30am, running shoes laced up, iPod on, standing in front of my building….and off I go.

The track is called Rise and Shine. I researched it a bit afterwards and it’s from a Nike motivational commercial.

It was exactly what I needed.

Ry knows all too well how I let the little voices in my head talk me down, how I let them win. How I let them tell me that I can’t do it….I’m too fat, too slow, I’m not getting anywhere, I’m not good enough. They are the same voices that taunt me with cheeseburgers and cupcakes, and then promise me we’ll try again harder tomorrow. I hate those voices. They are mean, they are bullies, and they are wrong.

I can do this. Yes I’m fat, but I won’t be forever and yes I’m slow but I will get faster.

I am going somewhere and it’s to the mall to buy new clothes for the hot body I’m creating.

I love cheeseburgers and cupcakes, but there is a time and place for indulging and it can’t happen everyday.

And trying harder doesn’t start tomorrow, it starts right now

The Do-over

So the lovely Glitter, over at Glitter and Lazers Weight Loss Blog (a fantastic blog), recently wrote about how she had gottenThe Do Over off track with her health plan over the last couple of weeks.  She had fallen off the wagon and was having a hard time getting back on.  She is very brave to admit she’s fallen down, and in an effort to get back on track, Glitter decided to have a weight loss restart.  A do-over.

As someone who has struggled over the last few weeks as well, this resonated deeply with me.  I’ve been feeling pretty blah over the last few weeks—actually blah would be understatement.  I’ve been downright miserable.  There was moodiness, there were tears…there were several cupcakes eaten (among other things).

I signed up for a peer support group to get some help with binge eating.  Binging is something I struggle with and am trying hard to work out.  The group was, in my opinion, a disaster so I decided not to go back.  This just added fuel to the fire of how I was already feeling…instead of a slow downhill walk, I was running, sprinting downhill.  But with some good talks with some good friends, and the resolve to keep going, I’m now feeling more like myself.  That’s right, I’m back to my jovial, smart-ass self.  So, now I’m also proclaiming a do-over.

I’m sure there are some people out there saying, “There are no do-overs!  You can’t do that!”

Well guess what?  I just did.

And if I get knocked down again, I’m going to get back up and have another do-over.  As many times as it takes until I get it right.

So I set a few goals for June:

  1. Stick to my meal plan.
    I have planned my meals and grocery shopped for the week, and prepared as many things ahead of time that I can.  I’ll continue to do this for the next four weeks.  I get one cheat meal per week (scheduled this week for Friday night dinner) when I can eat whatever I want (hello macaroni and cheese).  But no binging.
  2. Just say no to sugary drinks.
    I managed to get off the hard stuff (soda pop), but it’s the other little drinks here and there—ice tea, lemonade, vodka and cranberry juice—that add up to a lot of extra calories and unnecessary sugar consumption.  So I’m calling it quits.  Water, milk, and tea (sans sugar) will be my beverages of choice.
  3. Get my ass to the gym at least 2x a week.
    I think this says it all.

So, there we go!  I’ve got a plan…I’ve got some momentum…I only have five more days until I can have mac and cheese 😛

Let the Music Play

I love music.  No, even that is probably an understatement.

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I love songs with amazing lyrics that make you think, I love songs that make you not have to think too hard.  I love melodies and a great beat that make me want to get up and shake my groove thing.   Music can take you back to the past, help define the present, and push you towards the future.

Music has always had a big influence on my life.  Growing up, there was always music playing in the house—ABBA, Barbara Streisand, Luciano Pavarotti (my rock influences didn’t come until I got a little older).  And although I liked music, it wasn’t until I went to my first concert at 13 that I really fell in love.  The date: summer of 1988, the venue: Hamilton Place, the band: Platinum Blond.  It was loud, it was crowded, and we had awful seats, but at the time it was the best night of my young life.  I’ve been to many concerts since then, and seen bands from Blue Rodeo to New Kids on the Block.

Yes, I just admitted I’ve seen New Kids on the Block in concert.  And no, I’m not ashamed one bit.  That’s what I love about music—there’s something for everyone.

I am rarely without my iPod.  On the bus, on the train, going for a walk…I love having a good tune I can plug into.  I have just over 2,100 songs in my collection now—everything from Bach to Britney Spears and Ella Fitzgerald to Erasure.  It’s a collection that spans my 38 years on this planet and beyond, from well before I was born to now.

Music really helps shape my workouts as well (not that I’ve been doing too many of those lately, but I digress).  I’m constantly on the hunt for new music to add to my workout playlist—music that moves and inspires me to get up and go!  The right song can put me in a mood to push harder when I’m tired, and to keep going when I want to stop.   I really like knowing what other people are listening to and what inspires them, so I thought I’d share some of my favourite workout songs.  This is just a glimpse of what I’m listening to right now and it changes frequently.

Blurred Lines – Robin Thicke (feat. T.I. & Pharrell)
Part of Me – Katy Perry
Catch My Breath – Kelly Clarkson
Are You Gonna Go My Way – Lenny Kravitz
Fight the Power – Public Enemy
Hella Good – No Doubt
How You Like Me Now – The Heavy
I Can’t Wait – Nu Shooz
It’s a Beautiful Day – Michael Bublé
Mama Said Knock You Out – LL Cool J
Sweet Child O’Mine – Guns and Roses
Walking in Sunshine – Katrina and the Waves
Stompa – Serena Ryder
S&M – Rhianna (Dave Aude Radio Mix)
Raise Your Glass – P!nk
Suit and Tie – Justin Timberlake (feat. Jay-Z)

So friends, what type of music inspires you?  What songs get your toes tapping and just make you just want to get up and go?  Hopefully some of the songs that get me moving will get you moving too!