Welcome friends! Come on in! As you can see, I’ve done a little redecorating here at Victoriously. I thought it was time to pretty things up a bit. Sometimes you just need a little makeover to get your blood pumping and a little bit of excitement into your life.
I’m all about transformation. Hell, I’ve been trying to my entire life to transform. Remember the little discussion I had a few days ago about confidence? That demon has chased me for quite some time and at one time or another I’ve thought about changing so many things from my weight to my pitch of my voice. At one point I even wanted to try and change how I laughed! My brother was convinced it wasn’t possible, and he was correct (again). Despite trying to lose my sometimes annoying Betty Rubble giggle, it has stuck with me. I’m over that by the way, this is the laugh I’ve got and it’s the laugh you’re going to hear. 🙂
I think change can be healthy if you’re doing it for the right reasons. Wanting to become healthier—good change; wanting to change how you laugh—maybe not so much.
I came across this quote yesterday that I wanted to share:
I heard this in a Ted talk given by Shaka Senghor who is an author and motivational speaker. Now granted, Mr. Senghor was speaking about convicted felons and their ability to be rehabilitated, but this part of his talk really spoke to me. You need to create space for transformation to happen. You need to open yourself up to the possibilities that are out there and create room in your life for those possibilities to exist. Being open means allowing yourself to be vulnerable. That is something I’ve been unable and unwilling to do.
I think my confidence has eroded because I’ve not allowed myself to be vulnerable. I play it safe rather than take the chance and live with the possibility I might be hurt. You know something? I hurt myself either way. By cutting myself off I don’t allow myself to grow and blossom into a woman that has such amazing potential. If I take a chance and it doesn’t work, yes I might get hurt, but I’ll learn and I’ll grow.
A couple of years ago I tattooed two small butterflies on the inside of my right wrist. I put them there to remind me that transformation is a beautiful thing and that it was time for me to break free and fly. I’ve had lots of ups and downs since then, but I think now it’s time for me to create the space for true transformation.