My Accidental Life

“Life moves pretty fast.  If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” ~Ferris Bueller

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Today I am 38-years-old.  38.  Thirty-eight.  XXXVIII.

How did I get to 38?  I swear I just turned 30.  That’s what it feels like.  I remember my 30th birthday.  I spent it with friends, I ate Thai food for the first time, I drank too much (and yet surprisingly kept the Thai food down).  I remember thinking I was glad my 20’s were over and I was entering a new phase of my life.

I’m not worried about turning 38.  I’m worried that I don’t remember how I got to 38.  That the last eight years are a total blur and I’ve spent the better part of a decade with my head down.

Wait…am I having a mid-life crisis?  At 38?  That can’t be right…can it?

Lately, I have been questioning everything.  From, “why am I here?” all the way to “why do I always put my socks on last?” (The answer to that one is because I hate socks and would rather be bare foot, so I delay putting them on as long as I can).  I feel like a lot of the decisions I have made have been unconscious.  Life my life has happened to me rather than having created it for myself.  My life hasn’t exactly turned out as planned, but then again, I never really planned anything to begin with.

Whenever I am asked where I see myself in five years I never have an answer, and if I do it is always, ALWAYS career related.  People I know have one-year plans, five-year plans, ten-year plans!  At 30 I couldn’t have told you what I was having for dinner that night, let alone what I wanted to accomplish in the next ten years.  At 38, I still don’t know what I’m having for dinner tonight nor do I know what I want to accomplish in the next ten years.  I don’t want to be saying the same thing at 48.

So on this my 38th birthday, I’ve started a list of things I want to accomplish by the time I’m 40-years-old.  I’ve seen a few of these lists kicking around…some of them are 40 things by 40, I saw one that was 400 things by 40!  I settled on 100.  One hundred things I want to accomplish by the time I’m 40.  One hundred is a number I think I can handle in two years.  You can check out my list here.

Well I’m not getting any younger, so I guess I better get started!

Happy Friday everyone!