So first of all, I’d like to thank everyone for their kind words about my blog earlier this week. I have some AMAZING people in my life—friends, family, co-workers, readers—and it’s comforting to know how much you all care about me. I’m feeling ok and am ready to press on.
Now, back to the task at hand…my weight. That is what we are here to discuss, n’est pas?
I haven’t been focusing very much on my eating or exercising the last little while. I’ve been trying to figure out how to move forward and what I want to do. Being miserable certainly hasn’t helped matters any and I’m sure I have consumed more than my fair share pizza, chips, chocolate, and iced tea over the last little while. I’ve recently discovered Arizona Arnold Palmer Iced Tea, which is actually half iced tea and half lemonade…and about 3,000 g of sugar (I actually just finished drinking one while I wrote this so I checked the label and it has *gasp* 28 g of sugar in one bottle). Not only is Arnold Palmer a golf legend, he apparently has a talent for creating delicious, yet diabetic-inducing beverages. Damn you Arnold Palmer. I am in love with this beverage, which can mean only one thing. It has got to go!!
The other thing I have noticed is that this blog has become a serious downer. I know when I started writing that I promised you were going to see the real me, and all the ups and downs associated with losing weight, but geeze I can be seriously depressing sometimes! This chicky needs to lighten up! I’ll see what I can do about that going forward. 😉
Now last, but certainly not least—the 10 lb question—how did I do without dairy? I’m not going to lie to you guys, it was freaking hard. I certainly didn’t abstain from dairy the whole time, but I did consume less than I normally do. Would I do it again? Possibly (maybe with a gun held to my head). Would I make an effort to limit my intake? Yes, I definitely will. I think for me there is a line. I can consume a small amount of dairy at one sitting, or per day, and still feel good. Cross that line and my gastrointestinal tract feels worse than the mosh pit at a Limp Bizkit concert. Ok, I may have just dated myself with that reference, but you know what I mean. 😉
So what’s the plan? Well, I don’t have one. But that’s ok, because I’m going to get one. On Monday I’m going back to the Wharton Clinic to get some help with my diet. If you recall, Wharton was the doctor-supervised clinic I went to this past summer. I stopped going because it’s very much a “here’s the plan, go make it work” kind of program, and at the time I felt like I needed more support. The truth is I was losing weight on the plan, but I pulled the plug to go to Weight Watchers where I thought I would get more support. Then I left Weight Watchers because it just wasn’t working for me either.
Looking back at it now, I think it was just me who wasn’t working. Not putting in enough effort, not putting in enough dedication to making lasting changes to my lifestyle. This can’t be a fleeting diet, it has to be a lifestyle change. It is a difficult thing to do, and I totally get that, but I definitely need to put in more effort.
Let’s do something about that shall we?
If you always do what you always did, you’ll always get what you always got. – Albert Einstein